Denise
In response to Kimberly
Hello everyone, back again to share a story of needing help cleaning up, as requested by Kimberly.
Also wanted to say hi to some friendly folks who I've enjoyed interacting with. Nytecat, MDL, Emily, Trekkie, I appreciate you. Missing Catherine of course - Catherine if you're out there, I hope you're well. Also missing Annie who hasn't posted in a while, I hope she's ok too.
A quick note that my parents have changed their views a lot over the years and have apologized for some stuff in this post.
this accident happened one summer when I was 'on notice'. That was my parents' term having one strike left when you'd been misbehaving. My older brother had blown his last strike once and his punishment was having to bring one of our parents as a chaperone every time he met his friends for a whole month. H was 15 at the time and it ruined his social life so we were all anxious about getting 'off' notice.
I was 14 and having a hard time. My grades had slipped that spring and I'd gotten in trouble at church and school, nothing serious but it was unusual for me. It was also shortly after an accident I've described here where I wet and pooped my shorts at an outing with family friends. My parents never said it, but I always felt like my accidents counted towards the tally of naughty behaviour. I knew they were disappointed that I'd soiled myself at 14 in front of their friends.
Also, my body was a problem. I've mentioned before that I was tall and gangly, but developed on top. My mom was worried about me going down a bad path and tempting men or giving into lustful thoughts. I didn't give a hoot about boys or lust at that age, but being busty was almost viewed as sinful in and of itself, and that alone had my mom keeping a sharp eye on me. Between that and getting into a bit of trouble she was being very strict with me. I remember feeling unfairly punished for things I hadn't even done, but by virtue of my body I was suspect. Sadly these misogynistic attitudes were pretty common in church.
Anyway, that summer we went off to a summer lodge for a week. There were lots of activities including a small water park with a wave pool and some slides. I befriended a girl my age there, I forget her name so let's call her Kira. She was so sweet and friendly and took me under her wing. She was also confident and daring in a way I never dreamed I could be. I wished I could be more like her. Thankfully she was good at playing the 'good girl' so my parents let me hang out with her even though we were a bit naughty behind their backs.
When I put on my swimsuit the first day, I saw the disapproval in my mom's eyes. Of course it was modest - two piece, but the bottom was spandex shorts, obviously (briefs??? No way!!!) and the top was like a thick strap camisole that came down almost to my belly button. It was pale yellow and I had grown since I'd last tried it on. The bottoms still fit fine, but my breasts had really sprouted and the top was stretched very tightly across them. It was my only suit, so mom couldn't do anything but she was not happy.
Nevertheless, the trip went well and near the end my mom even said she might consider taking me off notice if I kept behaving so well. So of course, what happened next felt very high stakes.
Kira and I were playing in the water park one day. Me being me....well. I didn't realize how badly I had to poop until it started coming out. I felt my poop push out and squish between my cheeks. I stopped in my tracks and slapped a hand over my butt, eyes wide with panic. Kira looked at me confused and I blurted out 'I have to go to the bathroom NOW!' Kira and I hotstepped to the nearest bathroom. She could see my panic and was reassuring me, but it was too late. I was slowly filling my shorts and by the time I locked myself into a bathroom stall the whole poop was in my shorts.
I didn't know what to do. I started crying silently and tried to clean myself up. It was obvious that I was not ok, and Kira asked me what happened. Deeply embarrassed, I had to tell her that I'd pooped in my bathing suit. She offered to get my parents, and I panicked. 'No! I'll be in so much trouble!' I needed to handle this without them.
Kira was an angel. She brought me loads of paper towels and told me to rinse my bottoms on the toilet cistern. The problem was, even once the poop was rinsed off, they were still stained. I couldn't come out with no bottoms, so I was stuck. Kira, bless her heart, said if there was no more poop just a stain she'd try to wash them for me. I was so embarrassed, but there was no other option so I handed them under the door to her. She did her best with the bathroom soap, but it just wasn't working. I was trapped in the stall with no bottoms and spiraling fast, but then Kira said she had an idea.
She ran out and returned a few minutes later with a pair of shorts and a full, long sleeve top. She said it was her mothers and it was a protective sun outfit. She said she'd put my bottoms in the bathroom sink to soak with some soap. Then handed me some wet paper towels so I could really get my butt clean, then gave me the outfit which was not a perfect fit but worked. Then, she marched us over to our families where Kira explained to our parents that I'd tried on her mom's outfit because I didn't feel my bathing suit was appropriate for a young woman and I'd wanted something more modest. Well! You can imagine how that went over! My mom was beaming, and her mom thought it was sweet and let me borrow that outfit the rest of the trip. We managed to get my bottoms clean enough after enough scrubbing that my mom never noticed either.
Kira and I exchanged a few postcards, but sadly we lost touch. It's too bad, we had so much fun and it was so sweet of her to help me with my accident when I was practically a stranger. I hope she's doing well wherever she is.Tia
Poop in public bathroom
I don't normally use public bathrooms, but while out at Walmart this morning, I had the urge to go. This Walmart has both one toilet and multiple stall bathrooms so I opted for the single toilet. I sat down and peed first. I started pushing and all I was getting was gas. I knew this was going to be a struggle at this point. I bared down and pushed even harder and passed one small nugget. I was hoping no one could hear me, because by now I was really grunting to poo. I pushed again and another small nugget. My face is beet red now and I still feel full. Another 15-20 seconds of hard pushing and I managed to push out another nugget. I repeated this process (baring down and pushing/grunting) a couple more times and two more nuggets. After 5 minutes or so, I felt done so I wiped. I wiped and wiped and wiped and just couldn't get clean! I wiped close to 10 times before I was clean. When I look we in the toilet, there were 5 nuggets at the bottom of the bowl. I flushed, washed up and left the bathroom.Scooter
Porta Potty Poop
I was at an outdoor summer festival and had to dump a butt load of poop into a porta potty toilet. That was the only option available. Apparently a lot of other people also needed to poop because there was a huge mound of toilet paper and human feces sticking out above the water. My stool was a diarrhea like consistency which is why I couldn't hold it anymore. The person who went in after me surely saw my big mound of poop. To add to the embarrassment the walls are very thin and anyone standing outside waiting can hear everything going on inside. Not a fun experience but I couldn't hold it anymore. Has anyone else had to poop in a porta potty?
Denise
In response to Kimberly
Hello everyone, back again to share a story of needing help cleaning up, as requested by Kimberly.
Also wanted to say hi to some friendly folks who I've enjoyed interacting with. Nytecat, MDL, Emily, Trekkie, I appreciate you. Missing Catherine of course - Catherine if you're out there, I hope you're well. Also missing Annie who hasn't posted in a while, I hope she's ok too.
A quick note that my parents have changed their views a lot over the years and have apologized for some stuff in this post.
this accident happened one summer when I was 'on notice'. That was my parents' term having one strike left when you'd been misbehaving. My older brother had blown his last strike once and his punishment was having to bring one of our parents as a chaperone every time he met his friends for a whole month. H was 15 at the time and it ruined his social life so we were all anxious about getting 'off' notice.
I was 14 and having a hard time. My grades had slipped that spring and I'd gotten in trouble at church and school, nothing serious but it was unusual for me. It was also shortly after an accident I've described here where I wet and pooped my shorts at an outing with family friends. My parents never said it, but I always felt like my accidents counted towards the tally of naughty behaviour. I knew they were disappointed that I'd soiled myself at 14 in front of their friends.
Also, my body was a problem. I've mentioned before that I was tall and gangly, but developed on top. My mom was worried about me going down a bad path and tempting men or giving into lustful thoughts. I didn't give a hoot about boys or lust at that age, but being busty was almost viewed as sinful in and of itself, and that alone had my mom keeping a sharp eye on me. Between that and getting into a bit of trouble she was being very strict with me. I remember feeling unfairly punished for things I hadn't even done, but by virtue of my body I was suspect. Sadly these misogynistic attitudes were pretty common in church.
Anyway, that summer we went off to a summer lodge for a week. There were lots of activities including a small water park with a wave pool and some slides. I befriended a girl my age there, I forget her name so let's call her Kira. She was so sweet and friendly and took me under her wing. She was also confident and daring in a way I never dreamed I could be. I wished I could be more like her. Thankfully she was good at playing the 'good girl' so my parents let me hang out with her even though we were a bit naughty behind their backs.
When I put on my swimsuit the first day, I saw the disapproval in my mom's eyes. Of course it was modest - two piece, but the bottom was spandex shorts, obviously (briefs??? No way!!!) and the top was like a thick strap camisole that came down almost to my belly button. It was pale yellow and I had grown since I'd last tried it on. The bottoms still fit fine, but my breasts had really sprouted and the top was stretched very tightly across them. It was my only suit, so mom couldn't do anything but she was not happy.
Nevertheless, the trip went well and near the end my mom even said she might consider taking me off notice if I kept behaving so well. So of course, what happened next felt very high stakes.
Kira and I were playing in the water park one day. Me being me....well. I didn't realize how badly I had to poop until it started coming out. I felt my poop push out and squish between my cheeks. I stopped in my tracks and slapped a hand over my butt, eyes wide with panic. Kira looked at me confused and I blurted out 'I have to go to the bathroom NOW!' Kira and I hotstepped to the nearest bathroom. She could see my panic and was reassuring me, but it was too late. I was slowly filling my shorts and by the time I locked myself into a bathroom stall the whole poop was in my shorts.
I didn't know what to do. I started crying silently and tried to clean myself up. It was obvious that I was not ok, and Kira asked me what happened. Deeply embarrassed, I had to tell her that I'd pooped in my bathing suit. She offered to get my parents, and I panicked. 'No! I'll be in so much trouble!' I needed to handle this without them.
Kira was an angel. She brought me loads of paper towels and told me to rinse my bottoms on the toilet cistern. The problem was, even once the poop was rinsed off, they were still stained. I couldn't come out with no bottoms, so I was stuck. Kira, bless her heart, said if there was no more poop just a stain she'd try to wash them for me. I was so embarrassed, but there was no other option so I handed them under the door to her. She did her best with the bathroom soap, but it just wasn't working. I was trapped in the stall with no bottoms and spiraling fast, but then Kira said she had an idea.
She ran out and returned a few minutes later with a pair of shorts and a full, long sleeve top. She said it was her mothers and it was a protective sun outfit. She said she'd put my bottoms in the bathroom sink to soak with some soap. Then handed me some wet paper towels so I could really get my butt clean, then gave me the outfit which was not a perfect fit but worked. Then, she marched us over to our families where Kira explained to our parents that I'd tried on her mom's outfit because I didn't feel my bathing suit was appropriate for a young woman and I'd wanted something more modest. Well! You can imagine how that went over! My mom was beaming, and her mom thought it was sweet and let me borrow that outfit the rest of the trip. We managed to get my bottoms clean enough after enough scrubbing that my mom never noticed either.
Kira and I exchanged a few postcards, but sadly we lost touch. It's too bad, we had so much fun and it was so sweet of her to help me with my accident when I was practically a stranger. I hope she's doing well wherever she is.Anna Beth
I Did a BIG ONE!!!
It happened again! Oh it felt so good! It was so big, thick and long! It didn't flush. It happened at work and I had to get the janitor.
I captured the moment with my cell phone and have looked at the picture all day!Leah
Another vandalised public loo
So I took a laxative on Thursday I think it was, I was pooping alot yesterday as a result, but I never had diarrhea, just urgent needs to poo followed by big poo loads in the loo.
I did most of the pooping at home but I went out into town yesterday morning thinking my bowels had cleared, they had not!
As I walked the roughly 30 minute walk I grew increasingly desperate for a poo, the pressure in my lower stomach was getting bigger by the minute as I walked faster trying to clench my cheeks together.
Public loos are bad in my city so I had to think of where to go, I'll go to the shopping centre, so when I got there the four loos were all full! I was about to start banging on the doors until I heard a loo flush, but I still had to wait another minute! I put my hand down my skirt to feel my bum was normal so I hadn't pooped myself.
Two of the doors opened up at the same time and I threw my skirt down as I was walking In the loo, I hurriedly dropped everything to my ankles and sat down and then I shut and locked the door because the loo is just behind the door I can do that.
I had a good wee but after a few minutes the relief of this huge poo was so intense I let out a moan, there was one huge poo and several medium sized ones that I was so desperate to let out.
My bum was pretty clean so I just used a few sheets but the room was stinking! I never heard much from the other two loos but I guess they were pooping.
These loos runs along a wall, a very tight narrow corridor and at the end of the corridor by the exit door I found the only sink was smashed up so I couldn't even wash my hands, I wanted to cry but at least I felt so much better!
Has anyone else witnessed such bad vandalism? I hate seeing it, the soap was empty too, it's so sad
Andrew V
Response to Tully's "Consipated but pooping daily?" Post
I totally understand what your going through. I get constipated a lot and quite often will try to poop and only get out pellets. It's really annoying especially when the constipation causes me bloating and have really loud gas.
It's even worse because at work I share a cubicle with two women. Fortunately they have gotten use to my gas problems and just laugh off my embarrassingly loud trumpet sounding farts.
Andrew V
Skidmarked from a walk's Survey
Survey
Are you a man or woman?
Man
Age?
42
Have you ever had a skid mark so bad it looked like you pooped yourself a little?
Yes. Several times. Especially when I was a kid. Mostly around ages 9-13
If so could other people or you smell the skid mark?
I don't think so.
What caused the skid mark?
Unfortunately my older sister Amber. She was 4 years older than me and constantly picked on me. The most common way she would mess with me though was by giving me wedgies. I'd be lucky to get through one whole week without getting my Hanes white briefs yanked on. She thought it was hilarious to hear my voice go high pitched from her pulling my waistband up past my shoulder blades and sometimes she even attempted to get them over my head which she fortunately only succeeded in doing once.
What panty/underwear in your personal opinion causes the worst skid marks and why?
Well I can only speak for guys but I'd say classic white briefs.
If you're 1 of those people who doesn't wipe after pooping why?
I actually always wipe even if I think I don't need to just in case.
When you were growing up how did your mom and siblings react when doing laundry and they found a skid mark or you accidentally peed yourself?
My older sister actually did the laundry the most since my mom was a nurse and worked long shifts sometimes overnight. My sister thought it was hilarious when she would see skidmarks in my underwear while doing laundry because she knew it was from her pulling them up my butt.
If your mom got mad and punished you. Hypothetically of course, how would you respond if you caught your mom or dad having a wetting accident or you were doing laundry and found a skid mark on 1 of their underwear?
Not sure. Probably would ignore it.
If you were potty training kids and getting them not to wet the bed or have accidents anymore. Then you come home desperate and pee and poop yourself. What would you tell them?
I guess I'd just explain that it's normal and happens to most people sometimes.Nina
survey responses
Are you a man or a woman?
Female
Age?
40
Have you ever had such a strong slippery trail that it seemed like you had pooped a little?
It happens if the poop has a very sticky consistency and if you rush to put your panties back on. In this case, the remains of the poop may be larger than usual.
If so, can other people or you yourself smell the slippery trail?
In order to smell it, a number of conditions are necessary and I try to avoid such situations. Panties or bodysuits play a certain role. I try to make sure that their gusset is not too wide and is always between the buttocks, thus blocking the smell. You should not rush too much before putting on your panties after a poop, it is better to shake your ass a little and try to squeeze out too much poop that may remain around the anus.
What caused the slippery trail?
Ignoring or not wiping enough.
What panties/underwear do you think leave the most slippery marks and why?
Any panties get dirty. However, thongs are even more convenient to use because they have a limited area of contact with the anus. Regular panties sometimes have to be adjusted and the marks are distributed over the entire wide gusset.
If you are one of those people who do not wipe after pooping, then why?
The habit of not wiping has been with me since childhood. I never thought that wiping was too important, but at the end of the day I wash myself and change my panties.
How did your mother and siblings react when you were a child when they were doing laundry and found a slippery mark, or when you accidentally wet yourself?
I was never scolded for dirty panties, but my mother always insisted that I had to wash myself at the end of the day.
If your mom got mad and punished you. Of course, hypothetically, how would you react if you caught your mom or dad doing a sloppy wash or found a slippery mark on one of their panties while doing the laundry?
It's hard to say, I've never experienced such an attitude towards myself.
If you were potty training your children and taught them not to wet the bed and not to allow such unpleasant situations. And then you come home in despair and also pee and poop. What would you tell them?
There are different situations in life and you need to take them easier.
Saturday, July 19, 2025
Friendly Responder
Responding Friendlily... it's an adjectival word...I promise
I'm not going to answer each question but describe what happens. It's not as if I try to skid.... I'm active and therefore sweat....I also eat and drink so I do what I do at some point after that.
I'm always conscious of if I smell but I shower enough and work is stinky enough that I don't know if what smell is which.. but I can wear my pants the next day so I know it's not me.
I'm a speed walker so I get my workouts in that way. I choose dark underwear so I don't know if I skid from a walk. Today I wore light things and walked 2 miles in 93 degree heat and I skidded a bit but was mostly sweaty.
I don't know why I'm responding because it's embarrassing but I guess I feel comfortable... possibly
But that's all you get for nowLeah
Is it called summer constipation?
I have had an unusually strange week where I've been constipated but pooping small pellet like poos and I have been pooping twice a day which never happens but this constipation is weird, Maybe I'm not getting too dehydrated.
I had my first little poo in a beautiful pub wedged between two rivers, during my first drink I felt gas and discomfort in my stomach and I wanted to fart but that would have been embarrassing so I drank it and headed to the ladies.
There was about five loos in this room so I took the one on the end with the big window where you can see outside a little, I could also hear people out there, I pulled down my little skirt and thong to my ankles and sat down, It felt good to rip that big part and I had a little wee.
The room was pretty quite so I could listen to the people chatting outside as I was waiting for my poo.
I took off my top and started to adjust my bra when I could feel it coming so I gave a good push and grunt, and all I got was a little plop, I somehow managed to get through a lot of loo paper just for that.
Later on I was in another pub watching ladies football and I had that same feeling in my stomach, I left my drink with Kelly and went to the ladies my gosh, this is the worst ladies room I've ever been in!
The three loos had no locks on the doors, so I quickly went in the end one, pulled my skirt and thong down to my ankles and sat down.
Luckily the pub was quiet so I had the whole room to myself, and the door would not close completely, so I left it ajar.
I had a wee and gave a push, I grunted as I had to push it out, another tiny plop splashed beneath me, I wiped a few more more times and went to wash my hands, apparently there was no soap! So I washed with water dried my hands and left feeling much better. I'm going to have a laxative tomorrowAnna Beth
I Took a Big One Today
I haven't posted in a while.
I did really big doo doo today. It was long, thick and firm. It smelled so bad but felt so good!
Leah
Skidmarked from a walk survey
Dear skidmarked from a walk, your questions make me think of things I never really think about. So thankyou!
Survey
Are you a man or woman?
Woman
Age?
33
Have you ever had a skid mark so bad it looked like you pooped yourself
a little?
Yes
If so could other people or you smell the skid mark?
I wasn't sure if it was just a fart, but the smell of poo made me paranoid and I desperately needed to go to a loo and check myself/wipe my bum.
What caused the skid mark?
I always wipe my bum after a poo as best as I can, but find out later there's still more and now that poo is in my panties.
What panty/underwear in your personal opinion causes the worst skid marks and why?
Thongs because they ride up inside my bum cheeks
If you're 1 of those people who doesn't wipe after pooping why?
Sometimes I have a "clean" poo where I wipe once and the paper is clean, can still get skidmarks later though.
When you were growing up how did your mom and siblings react when doing laundry and they found a skid mark or you accidentally peed yourself?
It was humiliating of course, luckily it didn't happen very often as far as I remember.
If your mom got mad and punished you. Hypothetically of course, how would you respond if you caught your mom or dad having a wetting accident or you were doing laundry and found a skid mark on 1 of their underwear?
As kids we never did laundry
If you were potty training kids and getting them not to wet the bed or have accidents anymore. Then you come home desperate and pee and poop yourself. What would you tell them?
Accidents happen and it's by fault for not going sooner.
Mina
five monsters
Thank you Lea and Anna for your kind words. Yes it is true that we do very huge defecates. We think we broke even our record on Tuesday.
On Sunday we went on package tour trip arrange by Hisae's employer. We made fish sausage in factory and ate, then we ate huge lunch, and in evening we ate huge dinner. We are big eaters! Lunch and dinner were delicious very much. In evening we walked uphill from station to our flats, brisk walk, for exercise. So we can defecate huge volume instead of get fat.
Monday evening we all feeling that there is big mierda forming inside our lower body, so we set alarm for Tuesday very earlier than our usual, so we can all defecate in same loo before go to work.
Tuesday morning, after breakfast, Maho said, "I think huge monster will come out, so we prepare disposable chopsticks." (Maybe we told you before, sometimes Maho produce turd which is long 50 centimetres and wide 5 centimetres, loo cannot swallow, so we have to break it into smaller pieces.)
We prepared disposable chopsticks, and went to beige loo. Not green loo because in green flat temptation to go tatami room is strong very much, and we have to go work.
Hisae first because she is quickest. Maho next her. Those two beautiful round melons...Maho is envy!!!
Hisae pushed out one turd, about 20 centimetres, then she did wee. After that second turd came out between of her melons but.... it reached 50 centimetres! So it is not only Maho who produce that size turd! "Beautiful turd, Chae!" Maho broke with chopsticks and then flushed while Hisae standing, then Hisae sat down again and produced 3 more turds, if memory is correct. Then little pieces and some mushy, quite lots mushy, and then she washed.
Because we don't have much time we decide that Kazuko dry Hisae's beautiful bottom with doing her defecate. Hisae's motion was quite soft so she finish in about 9 minutes. Kazuko then pushed out soft turd. More and more and more it came until it was also 50 centimetres! Wow! Two of us produce that big size turd!! It made no noise when it hit water because other end of turd still inside Kazu's beautiful bottom! But finally last part hit water with splat. "Beautiful turd, Kazu." Kazu stood up, Mina broke up her turd, and then flushed, then Kazu sat down again and pushed out some more turds, quite many, but they were not so big. Biggest one maybe about 15 centimetres. And after that, quite lots mushy.
Maho's turn. Hisae next her, Kazu in front so Maho can dry her beautiful bottom with doing her own defecate. But her first turd quite small, only 10 centimetres. But then her bottom dome out huge, and slowly, 50 centimetres came out! So that makes three of us! After Hisae broke and flushed, Mho sat down again,Maho sat down again and pushed out second monster!! Again 50 centimetres! Then, same with Hisae and Kazu, she did some more smaller ones. "Beautiful turds, Maholinn."
Mina felt sad a bit. Three crushes produce monsters, only Mina won't produce? But Mina felt strong feeling between her melons, so maybe...She sat down and dried Maho's beautiful bottom, and she pushed. Aaaah... her turd came out very fast! And...50 centimetres!!! All of us! So we all burst into laughing! Kazu was hard to break up Mina's turd, because laughing so much. Then Mina did quite many more turds, smaller ones, after Kazu flushed. "Beautiful turds, Minappé." Mina produce quite lots mushy, then she washed and Hisae dried.
WOW! We had to fight with our hearts not to run to tatami room in green flat. But we were total time 50 minutes on loo so it was need to go to work. We gave to each other lots kisses instead, during defecate, not after defecate.
Beige loo ate five monsters! But she is not "poor toilet". She is very happy toilet! And we went to work with feeling much more lighter, like lovely people of this site often say.
Runner girl, thank you for kind words. Yes, we always enjoy our defecate with crushes! We hope soon you will able to enjoy lovely defecate with best person, like us. We wish you a good luck. Perhaps after you running, you can squat behind bush with best person and sh*t and sh*t and sh*t ten minutes and huge volume with person who you love. We hope and hope.
Emma Two, probably nobody thinking about how long you sat on loo. Too busy with work. And it is your right to sit on loo fifteen minutes and defecate more and more and more and more and more until you quite empty and feel a big relief. If we four working in your workplace, when you come back to your desk we look at you warm eyes, we say to you with eyes "we are so happy you did so wonderful huge defecate." We hope you don't feel shame. We are so happy that your beautiful bottom give you so good feeling for very long time.
We hope everyone have wonderful time to sit on loo many minutes and give delicious huge meal to hungry happy loo! And we hope everyone is happy all the time. We say this every post...
Love to everyone and many online hugs.
Chakamami FamilyDenise
Update part 2
To Carsfan - thank you for your message, I'm glad you've decided to share your experiences here. Sounds like you and I have a lot in common. Sorry to hear you had a similar situation with the pull ups, but I'm glad I'm not the only one....sigh. I'd love to hear the story of your accident if you want to share?
To Nytecat, thanks as always for your message! I'm glad you haven't had such a bad accident but the close calls are almost as bad, aren't they!
To Michelle and Kimberly - I'm sorry to hear about your accidents. It's bad enough to have them, and even worse to have to tell someone you pooped your pants! I hope you're feeling ok. Kimberly, I have needed help cleaning up from an accident before, but this post is going to be long enough so I'll save it for another day.
So, here is the next part of my update on using diapers. Yes, diapers! I've struggled to use the word but I'm getting used to it.
After the pull up incident, I let my partner take charge. I was too overwhelmed and still struggling with embarrassment and shame, so he did some research and bought a pack of diapers with tabs, and a pair of rubber pants that snap up on each side. He said the diapers should contain a full pee, but the rubber pants would be backup and also contain any smells if I had a poop accident. When I saw them, my heart leapt into my throat and I felt hot. It was too real, looking at ACTUAL diapers and rubber undies. I couldn't deal with it, so I packed them in the closet.
A few weeks later, my partner was away and mid-day I felt a pretty big poop brewing alongside having to pee. I'd been thinking I should 'test' the diapers this time, but hadn't felt ready....but this day, I grabbed the diapers and opened them up. I felt hot and a bit shaky but I've been working on breathing through difficult emotions in therapy, so I told myself it would pass and removed my undies. I felt deep shame as I taped on the diaper. The bulk between my legs was so embarrassing. With the rubber pants on, I could barely look at myself in the mirror.
I tried letting go, but I just couldn't. I think psychologically I just couldn't. After the pain and humiliation of my recent setbacks, everything in my body was shouting 'take it off and go to the bathroom!'. I almost did, but then thought - Denise, this sucks, but you need to do it if you want to prevent more embarrassment. So, I sucked it up and got dressed. I put on an old pair of overalls that I never wear because the buttons are so stiff it's hard to get them off. I knew I would waver and try to run for the toilet, so I had to create some barriers for myself if I was going to use this diaper.
Looking in the mirror, I was pleasantly surprised. It was bulkier than the pull up, but still discreet and not obvious. Then I went outside to my painting studio in the backyard. I started painting and tried to let my ADHD brain take over and not think about the bulk between my legs, my grumbling bowels, or my filling bladder. Slowly, I got into it. I had occasional breaks in focus, noticing myself squirming or crossing my legs. A few times I tried again to just go - I opened my legs a bit and squatted, but the panic rose and I snapped my legs back together.
Eventually, my painting slowed down as I had to use one hand to hold myself. The bulk of the diaper meant holding and squirming didn't help as much as usual, but instinctively I did it anyway. Finally, the waves on my bladder hit a tipping point. I tried to stay still, told myself it's okay, you can use the diaper. But as predicted, I just couldn't.
I dashed towards the house, feeling panic and desperation. The humiliation of my recent accidents rose in my mind and I decided right then and there that I was NOT ready to try the diaper, but it was too late. As I fumbled with the door I crossed my legs and bent my knees into a deep, nearly sitting position - to no avail. My bladder burst and the flood began. My anxiety was through the roof and after a few seconds of wetting hard I kept running for the bathroom.
I burst into the bathroom and began frantically trying to unbutton my overalls while dancing and crossing my legs. I could feel my bottom getting warmer and heavier, so similar to my bus accident. My heart was pounding and I was feeling waves of shame and embarrassment.
Side note - My therapist has told me since this is normal, sometimes when we have a bad experience that we've had before, we feel it twice as hard because we're feeling all the previous times with it.
But I digress - again it was too late. A huge poop began pushing into the seat of my diaper while I helplessly tugged at my buttons. Defeated, I crouched down and finished filling my pants while fighting tears. When it was over, I couldn't move. It felt like a disaster had unfolded in my pants and I was too scared to look at myself. But then a strange thing happened. I felt my anxiety ebbing away. I kept breathing, and reminded myself I was safe and not in a crowd with pooped pants or on a bus with wet pants. Then I stood up and looked in the mirror, and I looked...fine? Nothing had leaked or looked puffy. I felt very self conscious, aware of the heaviness and warmth of the soaked diaper and the load in my rear, but you wouldn't know it to look at me.
I walked around for a bit. I looked in a few other mirrors to confirm - yep, no evidence of an accident. And even better, I couldn't smell anything! Relief started creeping in. the diapers had worked, I'd survived soiling myself, nothing bad happened. This was the turning point for me. I think it healed something in me to have a 'good' experience of an accident.
Since then, I've travelled three times, wearing my diapers and rubber pants and it's great! I'm getting used to them, and I feel SO much more relaxed about having an accident. Paradoxically, I've found feeling relaxed makes it easier than ever to get in touch with my body and notice when I have to go. I haven't had a close call or anything. The only difficulty has been the learning curve of figuring out how to loosen and tighten tapes when I want to use the toilet. Obviously diapers aren't made for you to take them off to pee! But I am figuring it out.
I've also had some great chats with people. I never thought I'd do this, but I told my boss. Yep. Not everything, but I told her my ADHD has lead to accidents now and again (lol, understatement) and that I'm doing everything to prevent it from affecting work. She was SO nice about it! She said it was good I'd told her and if I need any adjustments at work to tell her right away. She even said if I have an accident while travelling I can text her day or night and she'll make an excuse for me if I'm late because I need to sort myself out. I felt SO relieved to hear that.
All in all, I'm feeling pretty good folks. Life feels much more under control, but at the same time, I feel less like I need it to be under control. Thanks for listening. As promised I'll share a story about needing help cleaning up after an accident but aside from that, I feel I might post here less. I think processing things here has done what I needed it to. Big love to you all.
Thursday, July 17, 2025
Skidmarked from a walk
Response and more questions
First of all I would like to say thankyou for opening up about on your post. Especially those that responded to my survey.
Nina- I liked how you answered my questions. I feel so happy when women open up about these things.
Nytecat- I think you're really cool. If I saw you in real life maybe we'd take a walk.
Tina- I could only imagine the frustration having to poop during and right after taking a shower. And if you were hurried to go to work and having to smell like poop throughout the day.
Darlene- I enjoy your post too (understatement of the century)
Leah- I think you're post are very contributive and interesting in a good way. I also enjoy it when you open up. Wow I can't imagine having such a messy poop, butt then again it's happened. 50 wipes is brutal on your butt!
Accidental Tourist- Yeah I like to hide my habits from people. I like talking about skid marks and poop and pee accidents. That's why I'm here. I can relate to you when you said your wife is leaving for the week and then you "relieve your burdens" I usually come here instead of talking to regular people about these things. It grosses them out.
Anna from Austria- I enjoy reading your post. In response to your latest post. You said you dropped three logs but didn't use as much toilet paper as you would normally. Did using less toilet paper cause a skid mark in your panty?
Friendly Responder- Hey there, thanks for responding.
Jimmy- Thanks a ton for responding.
Survey
Are you a man or woman?
Age?
Have you ever had a skid mark so bad it looked like you pooped yourself a little?
If so could other people or you smell the skid mark?
What caused the skid mark?
What panty/underwear in your personal opinion causes the worst skid marks and why?
If you're 1 of those people who doesn't wipe after pooping why?
When you were growing up how did your mom and siblings react when doing laundry and they found a skid mark or you accidentally peed yourself?
If your mom got mad and punished you. Hypothetically of course, how would you respond if you caught your mom or dad having a wetting accident or you were doing laundry and found a skid mark on 1 of their underwear?
If you were potty training kids and getting them not to wet the bed or have accidents anymore. Then you come home desperate and pee and poop yourself. What would you tell them?Anna Beth
I Took a Big One Today
I haven't posted in a while.
I did really big doo doo today. It was long, thick and firm. It smelled so bad but felt so good!Emma two
Huge relief at work
I'd been constipated for about five days until I took some laxatives before I left for work yesterday morning. By mid morning I was desperate for a poo and as it was quiet I got up from my desk and headed off to the toilets. I felt embarrassed to do it at work but I didn't have a choice because I was about to poo in my knickers. I made it to the toilets just in time and they had just been cleaned and I felt bad for the cleaner as I was about to mess up a nice pristine toilet. Oh well I thought. It was better than messing up my knickers! I pulled my three quarter length leggings down to my ankles and then my knickers and sat down on a nice clean toilet seat. For some reason I held it for a while and imagined I was out somewhere with no toilets around. I was bursting to go and it didn't take long before I was having an accident in my pants but of course I wasn't. I was safely sitting on the toilet and it felt so good. I pushed it all out into the toilet while I imagined I was doing it in my knickers and I loved it. It went on for ages and I couldn't believe I could poo that much. The relief of it was amazing and I felt three pounds lighter for it. I wiped throughly and stood out to look in the toilet and it was full of poo. Pulling my clothes up and flushed the toilet praying it wouldn't blow up and to my surprise it all went down. I washed my hands and returned to my desk fifteen minutes later so everyone knew I had a major bowel movement which was a bit embarrassing but at least I didn't poo myself.Darlene
Staying regular..
I've had 3 bowel movements yesterday and peed at least 7 times.. I first had to poop when I woke up, second one when I had got home and third one when I was about to take my shower. They've successfully all been flushed away except for the second one. It might had been that I've tend to use too much toilet paper but it comes with having a big butt unfortunately.
They were all mushy, brown and at least ten ropes in the toilet each time. Those farts before I actually do go are crazy loud and smelly. I do plan on farting powerfully as much as I have to pee.
Lee
Responses
Nina, welcome back! Are you the same woman who wrote about pooping outside two years ago? Considering back then you would answer your age as 38.
And Elvia, I think you became one of my favourite writers! Your stories have always been a blessing!
Rike
Answers to skidmark's survey and shifting time
Are you a man or woman? I'm a woman
Age? Still 35
Do you ever get skid marks on your underwear? It happened, but not often
When was your last skid mark? Some weeks ago
What reasons you get skid marks? If I really need to go and my poop comes out before I'm on the toilet or if I have a more mushy poop and need to wipe again after half an hour, but am far away of a toilet.
Do you call underwear panties? If so why? Yes, because some of the underwear I wear are panties
Last time you wet the bed? Maybe with 8 or 9 years
Have you ever pooped your pants as an grownup? Yes
If so, when was the last time and why? 2016, I was on the way to the university library and needed to poop, but first my bag must be put in a locker and that took more time than expected.
Have you ever peed your pants as a grownup? Yes,as a teen.
If so when was the last time and why? At a birthday party of a friend. I needed to pee but her older brother took a bath in their bathroom and I was there the first time and I was to shy to ask if there is another bathroom and so I waited and after some time I started to leak some pee and it got more and more. When he got out I still needed to pee. I don't know if the other saw something, but they complained and laughed that I was away for so a long time.
I noticed a shifting in the time lately. In the moment I always poop when I'm brushing my teeth and prepare myself when going to bed. Before that my normal time was around 1 or 2 pm.LEA
Replies
To Mina & her Crushes TYSM for your replies I liked them & also all of you seem to have a healthy diet so it's impressive how much you poop! So when you dig a cathole sometimes your poop coils up & it's fine but when it doesn't then you need a very big one! But the issue is that they are hard to dig especially when the soil is hard or when you have an emergency! So I remember when you went outside on page 2728 & it's best you didn't dig catholes b/c there was no point!
To Runner Girl TYSM & it's cool you got to use the restroom at the restaurant while having dinner with your wifey & sometimes the urge is so strong it's okay to go while having dinner.
To Darlene & Anna from Austria don't worry about the clogging it can happen anytime so it's okay & it's not your fault.